Enough... For Now

I want to be open about where I am right now. It's been a challenging year in a number of ways - away from the music, for the most part - and I think I'm beginning to feel the effects of that more keenly of late. I've seen it coming but done little to prevent it.

I've hit a wall. I'll be coming off of social media today until the new year. I need to do this. For all of the good that can come from it, it has mainly become of a source of news with which I'm currently ill-equipped to cope, and a parade of standards I am unable to meet. It currently feels like a stick with which I've been voluntarily beating myself on a daily basis.

There is more to it than that, of course. Several health challenges within the family - nothing too dramatic, but challenging nonetheless - along with feeling unwell myself at times haven't helped.

I feel as if there's so much more I could say... maybe should say... and yet, at the same time, I don't know what I would say. I only know that, for many reasons, I am struggling in a way that I've not done for some time, and right now, I have to take care of me.

One thing about which I feel particularly guilty is being unable to face up to the world at this time. I can't watch the news or listen to more than that which crosses my path, which is another reason I need to step back from social media. There's so much good out there, I know, but all I seem to be able to hear at the moment is lies, bigotry, hatred and shellfire. Forgive me, but I need to bury my head in the sand for a short while, and for all my impotence in the grand scheme of things, this feels to me like the ultimate dereliction of care.

Thank you so very much for all your support this year, it means so much. Thank you for reading this and for understanding, as I know you will. I hope that the upcoming festivities will be a tonic for each one of us. Above all, I hope that this time next year - and sooner - we are looking out on a different world; one that has learned from the mistakes it is making even now.

Things will begin anew in January. There are exciting things to come, places to go, and songs to be sung. I hope we can sing them together.


The world weighs on my shoulders
But what am I to do?
You sometimes drive me crazy
But I worry about you

I know it makes no difference
To what you're going through
But I see the tip of the iceberg
And I worry about you

(Rush, Distant Early Warning)

Don't ask me
I'm just sympathizing
My illusions a harmless flight
Can't you see
My temperature's rising
I radiate more heat than light

I'm not one to believe in magic
But I sometimes have a second-sight
I'm not one with a sense of proportion
When my heart still changes overnight

If I could wave my magic wand I'd set everybody free

(Rush, Presto)

Posted by Steve on December 9th 2023

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